I AM officially going to Bicol from 08/12/08 - 19/12/08. YES. Its eleven days long. I'll manage! My comfort isn't the priority anyway. I just feel blessed to be able to go and do mission work. I am exhausted. CTs start on tuesday. four days - nine papers. I know! Ridiculous. Anyway. I'm seeing more people that I know in SICC nowadays. which is really abnormal! I've been going there all my life and I've never seen anyone that I know until now.. Sigh. Yeah. So study study study tomorrow. I wanna sleep!

SINGFEST 2nd day was even better than saturday!!!! OneRepublic, Panic At The Disco, Jason Mraz, Pussycat Dolls, Alicia Keys. OMGG. IT WAS THE BESTTTTT. Go to my facebook for photos! :D Yeah. Well, I loved it. I WANNA GO EVERY SINGLE YEARRRRR...Yeah. The adrenaline rush, the atmosphere, the whole feeling. Like, who cares if it was freakishly warm! Yeah. It was good.

OMGGG. The first day of Singfest was a BLAST! Simple Plan was damn good. Today's gonna be even better. Tons of good bands and singers. :D :D

I"M GOING FOR SINGFEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My piano exam is tomorrow, at 12 pm. Omg. I have yet to start freaking out. Wish me luck (:

I don't wanna go to school.
REALLY.
It doesn't feel right anymore. The reasons I used to give to why I liked school don't apply anymore. I feel like I felt in primary 4. And I hate it the same as I did 6 years ago. Out of place. Just plain wrong. Like a puzzle piece in the wrong puzzle. Like a number in the wrong equation. Just wrong. And I hate it. My first achievement of the year: Got highest in class for a physics worksheet on transfer of thermal energy. Yes. My life is THAT pathetic. You know me, I need friends to feel right. Not that I don't have any now. It's just not right. It's not the same as hanging out with my squadmates or my old clique. I may look happy, but it's only because I have to be. I just wanna hang in class with Geraldine and Andrea again. (Can't help missing you guys!) No offence to anyone. But this is not because of anyone but myself. You can just tell you know? What's right and what don't click. I just want my old friends. Not that I don't have them now. It's just not the same you know. I don't like school. Not anymore. There's nothing for me to look forward to.

That's why I hold on tight,
When I hug you,
Cos when I let go,
My bit of heaven does too...

Learning Fest was THE best.
I'll just say. We managed a complete sell-out.
Of EVERYTHING.
No more of anything.
No muah chee, or sushi, or popcorn, or sugi cakes, or chocolate cornflake cookies!
PLUS the drinks and hundreds of potato chips that auntie supplied for us.
Business was like, continuous.
Hardly any breaks.
WELL DONE YOU GUYS. I think we did amazingly :D

Oh mannnn. I haven't blogged for 5 days! That' super long. Anyway. I have like loads of stuff that happened this week. I only ate lunch at home on tuesday and I didn't eat dinner at home today. Yeah. SOOO hectic. Anyway. Wednesday was funny. I had Geog test. Which I will probably pass. Then we had maths remedial as usual so Ms Chua gave us some questions then she went of to talk to some teacher and she said she'd be back in 5 minutes. 1/2 an hour later, she wasn't back. then Lyntette was going crazy. Cos she did too many  questions that she used the question four equation to do question 6! It was really hilarious. Yeah. But she finished all the questions! Yeah. Anyway, then on thursday I had physics test. Which i might pass. Then today I had literature test. Yeah. After school I went to church. When i first got there, only Mel, Fred and Bernadette was there. Then Andrea and Sam came. Then Justin and his friend Jeremy. Then Ivan. So there was like lots of people. All squashed in one corner of the audi. For some strange reason. Then Bernadette left. Then Justin and Jeremy. So left me, Mel, Andrea, Sam, Ivan and Fred. It was damn funny. Ivan brought his tablet so we watched the first few minutes of Superbad. Anyone heard of that movie? It's like so vulgar. Must have been at least NC16. I dunno. I didn't check. Lol. Yeah. Then I took 410 with Sam to J8 then went to find Martina's house. Which I did. Reached there a little after 7.30pm. Emmanuel was alrd there. So I ate dinner there, halfway Keith came. He ate too. He's covering NDP for 93.8 live next week. He got to intern at Mediacorp. lol. Then we discussed next sat's lesson plan for RCIY. I left at 9.15pm and chionged to NTUC at J8 and bought 7 large packets of corn kernels, 4 bags of chocolate chips, 3 bottles of caramel syrup and a giant jar of peanut butter. All for $56.80. To be used for our stall at learning fest. Yeah. So it's been a hectic week. Time for bed.

OK. Lots of updates. I think. Yeah. So it was Nicole's birthday party yesterday evening. It was a BLAST man. Gabriel was like catching all the dead fish out of the pond. Makeshift pond anyway. Yeah. Then the food was brilliant. Yeah. It was just fun lol. 30 second water bomb fight. Water pistols. You get the idea. Yeah. I'm catching the internet while it works. Cos it might just disappear any moment. Stupid modem.

Then this morning I woke up at 6.30am(!) yeah and headed over to church. hung around outside the main church with ok. A lot of people. Helped them sell chocolate !!! Haha. I'm gonna try and remember who was there. Guys first. Frederick, Daniel Lee, Daniel Seow (I think), Justin, Nicholas, Kevin, some guy which I dunno his name. Then girls, me, Joanna, Samantha, Elizabeth, Melissa, Jordana, Beatrice, still have I think. but can't remember. Yeah. We started to busk after 9 am mass. It was damn fun! Haha. We earned a few hundred bucks I think. Not bad k. ended up a whole lot of us were singing together. Lol. Even better! we were damn loud. Maybe people donated to make us shut up. Oh well! Haha. But my parents pissed me off. I don't wanna talk about it though. But they deserve a medal for knowing just how to spoil someone's day.

This just keeps getting better and better. Now, I can't find my NYAA badge. Freaking irritating can. I can't stand losing my things. I'll be bugged about it til I can find it. ARGH. Ok. I'm starting to go into daydream mode again. And that's bad. Cos that's when I start to live in my head more than the real world. And basically I just stop doing things like studying. I need a break. AWAY FROM EVERYTHING

And I skipped recess again today. I realised I have no problems going without recess. So I'll probably do that from now on. No recess.

AND my gut feeling tells me I'll be going to BICOL.

AND I'm helping out for p6 open house. YES.

ALL PRIMARY SIX STUDENTS (2008) ARE INVITED TO CRESCENT GIRLS' SCHOOL'S OPEN HOUSE. IT'S ON 6th SEPTEMBER 2008. ESPECIALLY TO THOSE WHO ARE INTERESTED IN COMING TO CRESCENT, AND EVEN BETTER TO THOSE WHO HAVE NEVER HEARD OF US. PLEASE COME DOWN TO OUR SCHOOL AT 357 TANGLIN ROAD. WE'LL BE WAITING! :D :D

I wanna go out and have fun and not care about anything. Drop out of school and become anorexic...I"M JOKINGGGG. I just wanna have fun and be happy, be loved, and have God in my life. That's all I need. Fun, happiness, love and my faith. I don't really need anything else. But OF COURSE. That's not gonna happen. I can't stand it. I'm gonna have a MELTDOWN. BUT I am keeping my self-made promise to never be emo. No more emoness. It just ruins me. I gotta be HAPPY. I gotta have FUN. I gotta trust GOD. Ok. I'll stop there. I don't wanna talk about the love part. That's like precarious, danger zone. Usually emoness surfaces from there. You know what I'm thriving on to keep me happy? I'm not telling you. Cos I can't believe it either. OK. Need sleep.

I
AM
STRESSED.

AND.
I
HATE
IT.

Today was a half-awesome, half-crap day. Yeah. I woke up at 7.30 am to go and run. And I did! For half an hour. Good for me. Haha. Oh yeah. I DIDN'T EAT ANY CARBOS THE WHOLE OF TODAY. My breakfast was eggs, lunch was a salad and dinner was lamb shank. Damn nice can. Anyway. Yeah so went to Holy Spirit for Busking practice. haha. It was damn funny. And jamming with other people is like the best ever. Anyway. I had 2 1/2 hours of solid fun! I don't get that often. So I really enjoyed it. Quite a few of us there. Me, Joanna, Geraldine, Samantha, Andrea, Fred, Daniel, Justin. Yeah and some others who drifted in and out. They booked the whole attic for like 7 people lol. Anyway. We decided on four songs and realised that we won't get anymore chance to practice together. The next time is the thing itself. So we're so dead. Haha. It'll work out. Damn funny lah. Fred and Daniel were like climbing the beams on the ceiling. And Joanna and Samantha took photos! I'm gonna steal it from them. haha. And i helped Andrea with a trigo question. Yeah. Super fun. I love jamming. Yeah. So I reached home late and got my parents pissed off. Oh well, the things I do for fun.

So yesterday I had my first MIP session. It was okay I guess. Just getting to know what's happening. Yeah. Should get better. Yeah. Then I went for Elizabeth's confirmation in Christ the King. Haha. SUPER crowded. Yeah. Too bad she didn't wear a dress! Haha. I can't imagine. LOL! Then all us cousins and everyone went to J8 Crystal Jade for dinner. Yeah. It was damn good. It was sooo funny. Haha. I was SO HIGH. It was crazy. Yeah. Damn fun. But I won't reveal what me and Gabe were teasing Josh about. Haha. Confidential. For Josh's sake. And apparently he's gonna shave bald! But it's for charity so it's ok. Yeah.

I have found a new way to lose weight. And it's not one of my theories. It's proven. This book : EAT RIGHT FOR YOUR TYPE.  Tells you what's good for you, what's bad for you, what makes you gain weight, what makes you lose weight, hat exercise works for you, according to your blood type. And I've already started. I went for a run this morning. And these are some of the things i can't eat. Chicken, shellfish, wheat, corn, buckwheat, peanuts. Yeah. So I've stayed off it. I can't eat soya products either. But eggs are good for my type. Yeah. I'm going on totally abstinence mode, NO CHICKEN. I'm serious. I'm totally going off it. Well, once I'm really into something, you know I won't give up easily. Even if it means forgoing some of my favourite foods. I don't care as long as I lose weight. I'm gonna try and aim to lose until my skinnies are loose. It's a good gauge really. Anyway, there's no harm trying.

So school again tmr. Sigh. Back to torture.

Should I rant?
YES.
OMG. I GOT NO MORE CHANCES TO WIN SINGFEST TICKETS!!!!!!!!!
I think I'm gonna buy them already. I give up. just gotta make sure Geraldine can go them I'm gonna BUY THE TICKETS. I can't stand it already! It's so annoyingggg. All the people who win are in the office! Why are they listening to the radio in the office anyway? Don't they got there to WORK. Geez, either they're all slackers or work is really that boring. ARGH. Annoying. I got no more chances cos the only time to win is in the morning at like 8am. WHEN I'M USUALLY IN SCHOOL, that's why I could do it now cos I have e-learningggg. OMG.

Anyway, my fingers are erm suffering. Cos I've been playing the guitar like some obsessed maniac since Wednesday. The fingers on my left hand are totally red, sore, ok they don't look that bad but they HURT. Yes. But it's ok. It's for a good cause! Must play properly for the busking. Yeah. And I enjoy playing anyway. After a while I forget it's painful. I can play lots of songs now. Widened my repetoire. (sp?) Yeah. I can play Untitled, Teardrops on my guitar e.g. Can't be bothered to list it. everyday I'm getting new songs. I'm surprised I can still type. Oh well. Bedtime.

Another day of e-learning has passed. Oh you didn't know? Haha. I've been having e-learning from yesterday to tomorrow. Yeah. So I don't need to go to school! Haha. Yeah. met up with Fred and (supposedly) Daniel to discuss busking stuff with Daniel BUT he had to leave just as he got there so oh well. Just me and Fred. Yeah. Haha. Then Nicholas (Neo) came later ALSO to discuss busking stuff. Yeah. Quite a lot of people taking part. Singers, dancers, musicians. Haha. Yeah. It's becoming like a carnival/festival/concert thingy. Yeah, but it's gonna be fun! Yeah. We're raising funds for to pay for our MISSION TRIP in December. So, anyone wanna come and support us (donate!) come to HOLY SPIRIT CHURCH on 20/07/08 from about 7am-1pm. I'll confirm the timing again later. Yeah. SO that's it for now. (:

I'm getting even busier now! omggg. Gotta practice piano for exam, gotta rehearse guitar stuff for busking, gotta go for NP and get myself and the sec 1s ready for promo AND still study for common tests! OMG. Going nutssss. I have to exercise every single part of my being: mental, emotional, physical. There aren't enough hours in a day. I can't push everything into one day. I'd die. Oh well, I'm almost always busy anyway.

Haha. I'm not really going for BICOL yet. I wish I was, but I have to go for interview first. Haha. I've so far been for one interview in my life. I hope it'll be alright. But I'm not gonna worry about that now. ANYWAY.

I AM TRYING TO WIN TICKETS TO SINGFEST! ANYONE WHO IS SUPER FREE AND WANTS TO LISTEN TO RADIO FOR ME AND HELP ME WIN, PLEASE HELP ME! I'M DESPERATE! :D :D I NEED AT LEAST 2 TICKETS K.

Winning the tickets is like the only way I'll be able to go. So I HAVE to win them!

Today was awesome. Yeah. woke up early to do work, but I was hardly successful. Yeah. had tuition after lunch then chionging for MIP mass. haha. I was EARLY. Haha, then met Geraldine, Elgyn and Joanna. Before mass started we got these envelopes and guess what? I'M GOING TO BICOL! Ahhhh!! Damn happy! Of course its no holiday, duh, I knew that, we're gonna be teaching kids catechism and helping refugee kids and stuff like that. 11 days (08/12-19/12) away from this hustle and bustle and doing purely charity work. HELPING KIDS! What could be better? Nothing. I'm really really happy. I didn't expect to be picked, but since I am...its BRILLIANT! Yeah. It'll be the longest stretch of time away from home for me. The last time was 5 days, OBS. But 11 days is a totally different issue. It's like suitcase sized, tons of clothes. Well, enough anyway. I wanna bring Nicole's tiny suitcase. It'll be so funny. I TOLD you everything was falling into place. and it is! Well minus one thing that's not making any progress. BUT I haven't given up! Nope. I don't give up. Haha. I AM HAPPY.

After MIP mass, my family and I went to Hard Rock cafe to eat dinner and OMG, they got gorgeous food! I had the best grilled chicken pasta ever, in my entire life. I had 2 sips of my dad's Long Island Iced Tea. It's an alcoholic drink with "all the white spirits known to man." quoted from my dad.  It was STRONG . Yeah.  I had 4 sips of my mum's magarita, that was nice too. Yeah.  Haha. Awesomeness. Anyway. Yeah.

Gotta go for dryrun for Learning Fest tmr. Super earlyyyyyy. AHHH. Crazy people. AND I have to bring my popcorn popper. Haha. Oh well. til tmr.

HELLO WORLD. Ok, I haven't really blogged properly lately. I've been busy busy busy that's why! I think I'll stop blogging about normal NP sessions, it'll be really boring. So, E-learning week is next week. FINALLY. And youth day holiday is on monday. I wanna go watch Hancock. Either that or Wanted. Yeah. If I do major work this weekend, then I can go without feeling guilty (: Haha. I've been doing physics for like 3 hours alrd. And that's pretty crazy. Hmmmm.

After getting my own room I've been feeling extra motivated to study. Yes it's weird. But it's not only for that reason, it's a combination of stuff. Yeah, hopefully it stays that way.

Busy, busy, busy.
Work, work, work.
Schedule, schedule, schedule.
Rush, rush, rush,

Summary of my life.